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05 February 2010 @ 12:20 pm
trek fic for hitlikehammers' birthday  
Title: Disappearing Act
Author: skyblue_reverie
Fandom & Pairing: Star Trek Reboot (aka AOS, ST XI, etc.), Kirk/McCoy
Rating: PG-13
Spoilers: None
Warnings: SCHMOOP ALERT!
Word Count: around 2000
Summary: A missing scene between Jim's award ceremony and the "Buckle up, Bones" scene.
Disclaimer: Any resemblance to anything whatsoever is purely coincidental.
A/N : hitlikehammers requested fluffy hurt/comfort for her birthday. I'm not sure it's fluffy, exactly, but the ending is sweet enough to rot your teeth. :D? I hope you like it, bb!

Addendum: This fic has been remixed by the completely amazing linelenagain. Make sure you go read it: A Hard Act to Follow. The title does not lie - I'm glad I don't have to follow that act! :D



Jim was nowhere to be found, goddamn it. Kid had a way of disappearing when he wanted to brood in silence, picking at whatever was bothering him like a scab and not letting anyone close enough to help him, maybe even heal him. Stubborn ass. They'd only been back from the Narada engagement for a couple weeks, and Jim had been avoiding Bones as much as possible.

Fortunately, over the three years that they'd roomed together at the Academy, they'd developed a weird kind of hive-mind connected-at-the-brain thing and so Bones usually had pretty good instincts as to where he could find Jim. He'd tried all the usual places with no success, so it was time to go for the more esoteric. On previous occasions he'd found Jim up a tree in Golden Gate Park, in the shuttle simulator, even once in the children's section of a local bookstore, reading a kid's book about a penguin, for some bizarre reason.

This time, he finally located Jim in the far upper back corner of the darkened and silent auditorium where only three nights before he'd been honored, applauded, and officially awarded command of the Enterprise. Jim was sitting on the floor against the wall, with his legs bent, his chin resting on his knees, and his arms wrapped around his shins. Bones snorted. How melodramatic. Generally the best way to approach Jim in this mood was to be casual, act like nothing was out of the ordinary. Anything else would spook him and he'd clam up. God forbid he acknowledge that he had psychological needs like every other human being.

"Ah, there you are, Jim." He slid down the wall, settled beside Jim. He nudged Jim's shoulder with his own, hoping for a nudge back. He didn't get it. Damn it. Kid was being unresponsive - that was always the hardest to pull him out of. He sighed, pulled his flask out of his uniform's inner pocket, waved it in front of Jim's face. Jim ignored it. Bones felt a tingle of true concern now. It wasn't like Jim to turn down an offer of booze.

Well, if casual wasn't going to work, he might as well go for blunt. Really, it wasn't like he had that many other weapons in his arsenal anyway. "Talk to me, kid."

There was no response. Damn it. Now he was getting really worried. "For god's sake, Jim, I'm trying to help here. The least you could do is acknowledge my existence." Okay, that had been kind of pissy and uncalled-for, but seriously, the kid was freaking him out. At least it seemed to finally spark some kind of recognition in Jim.

"Fine, Bones, you're there. Now fuck off." The words were harsh, but the tone was off. In fact - it kind of sounded like Jim had been crying. Or oh Christ, even worse, like he was still crying. God damn it. He was terrible at dealing with tears, always had been. It made him feel helpless. He purely hated feeling helpless. Jocelyn had once told him that he could heal people's bodies but he couldn't comfort anyone's spirit worth a damn. It had stung, but he knew she was right.

Still, this was Jim. And for Jim, he would try. Hell, he'd probably try to fly to the moon under his own power if he thought it would help Jim. He mentally smacked himself upside the head. Now was not the time to be dwelling on his unrequited love for the kid. This was about what Jim needed, not about Bones.

So, feeling ten different kinds of uncomfortable, he reached one arm out and slung it over Jim's shoulders. He heard Jim's startled intake of breath, and felt heat rushing to his face in response. What the hell was he doing? Oh god, this was weird. Still, he'd started down this path, he might as well see it through. So he roughly pulled Jim closer to him, giving him an awkward one-armed hug. Jim was tense and stiff at his side.

He sighed. "Relax, kid. It's okay. It's just me."

The words were lame, but somehow they seemed to help, because Jim gradually unbent, leaned into his side. They stayed like that for several minutes, easing into this new level of closeness. It wasn't like they'd never touched each other before, but it had always in a casual guy-ish way - slaps on the arm and the like - or in a medical context, since Bones had to patch Jim up practically every other day after he pulled some damnfool stunt.

Eventually, he heard snuffling again, and knew Jim was trying to hold back another round of tears. Idiot would bottle everything up like a goddamn Vulcan and then he'd explode. And since he'd appointed himself the kid's keeper, it was up to him to make sure that didn't happen, even if he felt completely unqualified to handle this situation.

So he pulled Jim in further until he was completely within the circle of Bones' arms. Jim didn't even make a token objection this time, just curling into Bones until they were - there was really no other word for it - cuddling, and Jim was finally letting loose with wracking sobs that tore through his body. Bones let his fingers stray into Jim's hair, carding through the short strands.

He murmured soothing nothings into Jim's ear, falling into an almost trance-like state. He'd always kind of worried that if they ever ended up in this kind of proximity, he'd get hard and give away his carefully-hidden secret, but no, this wasn't sexual at all. It made him feel strangely proud, in an way, to be able to do this for Jim, to provide him with some sort of comfort that he knew Jim wouldn't accept from anyone else.

Eventually, Jim seemed to wear himself out, and shifted to breathing raggedly instead of choking out sobs. He didn't move, though, and Bones wasn't inclined to let him go. So they stayed where they were, and it should've gotten more uncomfortable as time went by, but somehow it didn't.

When Jim finally spoke, it startled Bones out of his reverie. "I'm in love with you too, Bones." His voice was hoarse and rough, but there was a mischievous note to it that was so perfectly Jim that it made Bones weak with relief.

Then his brain caught up with the words Jim had just uttered. Wait, what? "I - you - what?"

Jim let out a rusty chuckle. "I said, 'I'm in love with you too, Bones'."

Ignoring Jim's declaration of affection, which was just too outlandish to deal with, Bones went with his default state - cranky and defensive. "What makes you so goddamn sure I'm in love with you?"

This time Jim's laughter flowed more freely, and the sound was a sweet stab to Bones' heart. "Well, for one thing, you risked your career to sneak me onto the Enterprise. Kind of a clue there."

Bones harrumphed. "Jim, you risked your life to save the entire planet. Does that mean you're in love with everyone on earth?"

Jim waved this off. "That's different. I was just doing what was necessary. Anybody in my position would've done the same." Bones shook his head, but a tiny smile tugged at his lips. Jim's faith in people, despite all the mistreatment he'd received over the years, was something that Bones admired about Jim, and, fine, yes, loved about him. Not that he'd admit it.

"That's all I was doing too, kid, when I snuck you onboard." Well, that was a blatant lie, but Jim didn't have to know that.

"Bones, you're a terrible liar. But fine, if you want to play it that way, there's also the fact that you actually looked for me and found me and held me while I cried like a little baby. That's some dedication right there." He sounded embarrassed.

"Jim, anyone would've had a stress breakdown after what you've been through. It's a completely normal psychological reaction. I'd be a pretty poor doctor and a poorer friend if I didn't try to do something about it."

"Okay, Bones, if you want to be stubborn, there's also the fact that for the last ten minutes you've been murmuring in my ear about how much you love me and want to take care of me and can't live without me and stuff." Jim sounded a little bit bemused, a little bit bewildered, and a little bit in awe.

Bones felt his entire face flood with heat. Oh, shit. Shit, shit, shit. He prepared himself to deliver a truly blistering stream of invective, the likes of which had never before been heard or even contemplated. It was going to be a thing of terrible beauty.

But it never got a chance to happen, because Jim tipped his head up towards Bones', lowered his lashes, and then Jim was kissing him, and oh god. Instantly, he knew that this was it. He'd never have believed it if he'd been told beforehand, would've laughed in the fool's face who tried to tell him, but yeah, now he believed. This was meant to be. He and Jim. This was all the passion, all the tenderness, all the hope and love and yearning for the future together that he'd always tried to convince himself was there with Jocelyn, but it never had been.

The kiss became deeper, more possessive. They clung to each other, ravaging each other's mouths and letting out helpless little gasps of pleasure and desire. It was messy with saliva and the remnants of Jim's tears and it was desperate and hot and needy. And then - then it changed. As if they both realized simultaneously that they were meeting no resistance from the other, they calmed. It was still just as hot - and oh yeah, now Bones was definitely getting hard - but somehow now it was reassuring, too, full of unspoken promise and awakening joy and the knowledge that it would be the two of them, together against the world, for as long as they both lived.

It had to end eventually, and so slowly they wound it down, shifting into lazy nips and licks and presses of their lips together. Finally, Jim let out a shuddering sigh and rested his forehead against Bones'.

"Wow, Bones, if I'd known you were that good of a kisser, I'd have done that ages ago." Jim sounded content, or as close to it as he ever got, and Bones finally, finally relaxed. He was going to be okay. Wouldn't do to be too obvious about his relief, though, so he snorted.

"No, you wouldn't have. You were too busy having sex with everything that moves to look twice at me. And you needed to get that out of your system. Because, Jim," and here he let his voice become deadly serious, "I don't share. I mean it."

He felt Jim shudder a bit against him in reaction, and he felt a small thrill of satisfaction. He punctuated his statement with another possessive kiss, and felt Jim's surrender and his acquiescence.

"Now that you're mine, kid," and there was another shiver, "we've got a lot of lost time to make up for, so what do you say we go back to our room and start on that?"

A smile spread across the kid's face, so wicked and devilish and yet so happy that Bones felt a bit dazed. "You think you can keep up, old man?" Jim said, and then he was pushing out of Bones' arms and onto his feet and sprinting out of the room with a wild yell of triumph and challenge.

Bones shook his head, got up and followed at a more sedate pace. He had a feeling he'd be chasing a giddy and reckless Jim through the entire goddamn galaxy for the rest of his life, and really, he couldn't think of anything he'd rather be doing.

 
 
How do I feel?: sleepysleepy
 
 
 
beah: trek love to press spock's buttonsbeahorgana on February 5th, 2010 09:13 pm (UTC)
EEEEEEEEEE

\o/
EEEEEEEEEE

Sky: [star trek aos] jim smileskyblue_reverie on February 5th, 2010 10:52 pm (UTC)
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!
\o/
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

First comment, bb! I love it when you do that. ♥
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Sky: [star trek aos] bones damaged calmskyblue_reverie on February 5th, 2010 10:53 pm (UTC)
haha, I'm very glad I brought the lulz, especially after seeing your rage entry earlier. *smish*

...a kind of sweet metaphysical blur...: captainmccoyhitlikehammers on February 6th, 2010 01:54 am (UTC)
You've given me an opportunity here to squee over this slice of awesome some more. So:

SQUEE!!!!

Again - I love this. And again - THANK YOU SO MUCH.
Sky: [star trek aos] jim & bones backsskyblue_reverie on February 6th, 2010 02:03 am (UTC)
Oh, hon! You already gave me a wonderful comment over at jim_and_bones, so you didn't have to comment again! Thank you, though. I am so glad that it pleased you. You're absolutely one of my favorite writers in this fandom, and your stories have given me so much pleasure, so I'm thrilled I could give a little bit back to you.

blcwriter: Bones side profileblcwriter on February 6th, 2010 02:24 am (UTC)
Oh lordy. Possessive Bones is just ...
GAH.
I'm incoherent.
Sky: [star trek aos] bones nameskyblue_reverie on February 6th, 2010 02:32 am (UTC)
\o/ Thank you!

To render you incoherent is quite the accomplishment! :DD

So glad you liked, bb. I have such a possessiveness kink. (Big surprise, eh?)
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drinking rum and writing some: jim bones closetherumjournals on February 6th, 2010 03:45 pm (UTC)
i really liked this!! loved bones cuddling jim ...so sweet. and i love the penguin reference, ha ha! :-D

Sky: [star trek aos] kirk/mccoy b&wskyblue_reverie on February 6th, 2010 04:38 pm (UTC)
Thank you, bb! I have such a weakness for tender cuddling. And hee, you caught and commented on the penguin ref! \o/

... I also snuck in another (more subtle) reference to another fic but I didn't really expect anyone to catch that, except maybe the author in question. :D
sundappledsundappled on February 6th, 2010 05:07 pm (UTC)
I love this! I often find h/c a bit out of place or character, but this is so well done ♥

And awww Jim, and Bones, and their pretty faaaaaaaaaces.
Sky: [star trek aos] jim & bones hyposkyblue_reverie on February 6th, 2010 05:39 pm (UTC)
Thank you! I admit to having a total weakness for h/c, so I'll read it all, no matter how schmoopy. But I do know what you mean - it's easy to go too far. So I'm very glad that you did not find this OOC! :D

Jim and Bones bring the pretty, there's no doubt about that. Guhhhh.
this is not a thalia: ST: meet-cutethalialunacy on February 6th, 2010 05:26 pm (UTC)
Eeee the awkwardness was so great.

And this
"I'm in love with you too, Bones." His voice was hoarse and rough, but there was a mischievous note to it that was so perfectly Jim that it made Bones weak with relief.
was PERFECT.

OH WHAT THE HELL THIS WHOLE THING WAS PERFECT. :gathers it to her bosom and carries it with her everywhere:
Sky: [star trek aos] jim smileskyblue_reverie on February 6th, 2010 05:42 pm (UTC)
Yayyyyyyyyy thank youuuuuuuuu! *happy dance*

I'm so glad you liked it, bb. We seem to have a bit of an awkwardness button, don't we? :DDD

AWESOME COMMENT IS AWESOME. Srsly, bb, THANK YOU. Err, spekaing of awkward, *shuffles feet* do you mind if I friend you? :D?
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secretsolitairesecretsolitaire on February 6th, 2010 06:02 pm (UTC)
Lovely fic. I liked the line about Bones being good with bodies, not spirits -- seems like maybe he's getting a little better. :-)
Sky: [star trek aos] bones looking at jim b&wskyblue_reverie on February 6th, 2010 07:04 pm (UTC)
Thanks, hon. I'm really happy that you liked it. I think that, for Jim, Bones will try a lot of things that are outside his normal comfort zone, which makes me a very happy sky indeed. :D
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Sky: [star trek aos] jim & bones hands good gskyblue_reverie on February 6th, 2010 10:47 pm (UTC)
Aww, thank you honey! I'm glad you liked. I have such a possessiveness kink. I'm happy that it seemed to hit others' button too. :D And yay for re-reading! That thrills me.
missmarie9 on February 6th, 2010 07:14 pm (UTC)
Eee, that last line -- the whole thing was perfection and so realistic.

Thanks for writing this.
Sky: [other] heart splashskyblue_reverie on February 6th, 2010 10:48 pm (UTC)
Aww, thank you so much for reading and leaving such a lovely comment!!
Kay: karl ♥royal_chandler on February 6th, 2010 07:18 pm (UTC)
Oh I love this! I love Bones comforting Jim because it's Jim and he just has to.

Wonderful, bb!
Sky: [star trek aos] karl hand to foreheadskyblue_reverie on February 6th, 2010 11:07 pm (UTC)
Yay, thank you bb! I'm so glad you enjoyed. I love the kind of dedication between two people where they'd just do anything for the other, no matter how uncomfortable they might find it, because the other needs it. :D
joygoddessjoygoddess on February 6th, 2010 07:18 pm (UTC)
*sighs happily* Magnificent, truly magnificent. Loved that last line. I really do see Bones following Jim anywhere and everywhere. Great fic. Hugs!
Sky: [star trek aos] bones worried profileskyblue_reverie on February 6th, 2010 11:08 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much!! *hugs back* I always obsess about first and last lines, so I am very happy to hear that the last line worked for you! :DDDDD
Amanda Warrington: Jim-Bones Gigglingawarrington on February 6th, 2010 07:30 pm (UTC)
You packed in an amazing amount of emotion into such a short story. The angst was almost palpable. I really enjoyed your characterisations - Bones doggedly looking for Jim, clearly having done it many times before, and Jim gently letting on he knew how Bones felt and that it was reciprocated. I loved that Bones hadn't realised what he'd been murmuring into Jim's ear!

And then there was the end with Jim rushing out with a yell and Bones following at his own pace behind, so very in character. A lovely read, thank you!
Sky: [star trek tos] kirk on topskyblue_reverie on February 6th, 2010 11:11 pm (UTC)
Eeeee, thank you so much! Being IC is the most important thing to me when I write, so it's always really thrilling to hear that it worked. And I am totally in awe of your writing talent (I ship Kirk/Spock hardcore for TOS) so I'm especially excited to have you read and comment! :DDDDDD
anne_higginsanne_higgins on February 6th, 2010 10:25 pm (UTC)
I loved this! It was all sweet and wonderful, but I really liked how uncomfortable Bones was trying to comfort Jim, but for Jim, he did it anyway.
Sky: [star trek aos] jim omgskyblue_reverie on February 6th, 2010 11:14 pm (UTC)
laksjdlkfjs;ldkfjasl;dfkjsd;lkjfasf OMG YOU!!

Your Bring it On series is like, my favorite version of how Jim and Bones got together. Totally one of the best fics in this fandom. SO AWESOME. So thank you, thank you for your comment! Ooh, I'm all giddy and fangirly over here!
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adafrogadafrog on February 6th, 2010 11:23 pm (UTC)
eeeeeeeee!!!!!!
Sky: [star trek aos] jim smileskyblue_reverie on February 6th, 2010 11:36 pm (UTC)
Thank youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!