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09 January 2010 @ 06:15 pm
Trek Fic for yeomanrand: Ritual  
Title: Ritual
Author: skyblue_reverie
Fandom & Pairing: Star Trek Reboot (aka AOS, ST XI, etc.), Kirk/McCoy
Rating: NC-17
Spoilers: None
Warnings: None, except that it's kinda dysfunctionally fluffy, if that makes sense counts as a warning.
Word Count: around 1400
Summary: Bones and Jim have a ritual of sorts for when Jim gets back from an away mission. (Hint: it involves slow, sweet sex.)
Disclaimer: Any resemblance to anything whatsoever is purely coincidental.
A/N : This was written for yeomanrand and shinychimera. Beta'd by ennui_blue_lite, my beloved BFF.

It had become a ritual for them. Whenever Jim got back from an away mission that had gone awry, and after Bones had patched him up and grumbled at him and finally discharged him from sickbay, they'd go back to the captain's quarters - their shared quarters, now - and he'd put Jim to bed. Most nights they curled around each other on their shared bed, their bodies entwined in sleep, but on nights like this, Bones made a show of tucking Jim in with a soft, gentle kiss, then went to catch up on paperwork at Jim's desk, ostensibly so Jim could get some rest, but really so he could draw reassurance from watching Jim sleep, healthy and whole.

Jim would wake up in the middle of the ship's night, silent but speaking volumes with his eyes as he padded over to the circle of golden light illuminating Bones. They both knew Jim wouldn't sleep soundly without Bones beside him, that he'd eventually get up to seek out his lodestar, but Jim's reaching out for Bones was part of the ritual, so they continued to do it this way.

This time was no different, and the fact that the mishap hadn't been serious, had barely resulted in anything worse than a scratch, didn't stop Jim from seeking out the comfort that he needed from Bones, and that Bones needed to offer to Jim.

Bones took him by the wrist, muttering curses under his breath that they both knew he didn't mean, and led him back to the bed.

Now Bones was undressing him, his movements smooth and sure and unhurried. This wasn't a frantic quickie initiated by Jim before shift started, and it wasn't one of Bones' epic seductions either. This was Bones-as-doctor-and-something-more, Bones reassuring himself that Jim was alive, and whole, and offering comfort through the tips of his sure fingers and the caress of his rough palms. Jim loved the feel of those hands against his skin, would never be able get enough, no matter how long he lived.

Bones went over every inch of his body, in a way that he hadn't been able to in sickbay. He was patient, thorough, methodical, and not at all clinical. He dropped achingly tender kisses onto every part of Jim that passed his hands' inspection, and his dark eyes smoldered with protectiveness, possessiveness, and love. It was an addictive combination, and Jim reveled in it.

They made no secret of their relationship, but most everyone thought that Jim led and Bones followed, that Bones wanted and Jim deigned to give, that Jim could walk away at any time and probably would, once something new and shiny caught his eye. They didn't understand at all. The truth was that Jim could never leave Bones, couldn't live even a day without the refuge of Bones' steady affection and fathomless passion. He'd gone for most of his life without love, and now that he had it, he knew he could never survive without it again.

What was unbelievable to Jim was that Bones appeared to feel the same way about him - seemed to need Jim with a staggering intensity. Jim supposed that maybe some people would find that need - verging on obsession, really - to be overwhelming, or scary. Not him. It only meant that he and Bones were tied together with knots that could never be severed. And that was the most secure feeling in the world, the knowledge that no matter what happened, no matter what he did or how badly he screwed up, he had a home in this man.

He pulled his thoughts back from where they had wandered, so he could focus for the moment on the physical. Bones had already removed every last stitch that both of them had been wearing, and now he placed a hand on Jim's sternum, pushing him gently until Jim was lying on his back on the bad. He placed Jim's wrists above his head, gave a look that Jim knew meant he should keep them there. With a small smile, Jim complied.

Fuck, he loved it when Bones got like this, tender and dominating at the same time. It didn't happen that often - Jim wasn't usually willing to be so passive - but on nights like this, he and Bones both needed it.

Bones had now finished his head-to-toe tactile survey of Jim's body, and, having concluded that Jim was uninjured, he proceeded to turn up the heat. He knew just where to touch Jim to drive him wild, and he put all of his knowledge to use now. He rubbed the rough pad of a thumb over Jim's nipple, hard enough that Jim hissed in mingled pleasure and pain. Then he soothed it with a kiss, stroking away the sting with a delicate movement of his tongue. Jim groaned, giving Bones the feedback that he knew he wanted. Bones' eyes turned a shade darker and he kept going, teasing him all over, making Jim crazy with the sensations that he evoked.

There were fingers on his thighs now, and a mouth on his stomach, working their way towards his cock far too slowly. He was hard and aching, thrusting his hips blindly in a desperate effort to get some friction.

Bones kept tormenting him until Jim was gasping and moaning helplessly, involuntarily. Even then, he still didn't touch Jim's cock. But he - oh god - pressed slicked-up fingers inside of Jim, working him open fast enough to be just this side of painful. Jesus, that was good. Nothing could feel better than this. And then he realized just how wrong he'd been as soon as Bones' cock pushed into him, steady and inexorable.

Jim let out a noise that sounded suspiciously like a sob. Bones leaned down and kissed him, deep and slow. He reached over Jim's head for Jim's hands and threaded their fingers together, pressing his palms against Jim's as he pushed his cock in as deep as it would go, and then a little deeper than that.

Jim was in a daze, his world narrowed to the place where their eyes met and held, and the place where Bones had him impaled. He swore to himself that he would always come back to Bones, always find a way. Would never leave Bones alone. He couldn't summon the words to speak it, but he exhaled his vow into every breath against Bones' lips, pressed it into his skin with every clutch of their entangled fingers, and repeated it silently to the universe with every long, slow stroke of Bones' cock inside of him. He'd never give this up. Never, never, never.

When they came, it was with perfect synchronicity and perfect understanding. Jim kept his eyes wide, didn't hide anything from Bones as his body shuddered through its release. And that set Bones off with a low and broken moan, pulsing strongly where he was clasped tight within Jim's body.

In the aftermath, Bones rolled off to the side and pulled Jim with him, tucking Jim's head into the crook of his neck. They breathed together for several minutes without speaking, still communicating with small movements of fingers on each other's bodies.

Jim closed his eyes. There'd been something he'd been meaning to say, something that had been growing between them, momentous and inevitable, maybe since they'd first met. He wasn't sure why he hadn't brought this up before, hadn't taken this final irrevocable step, when it was the thing that he wanted most in the world. But whatever the reason for his hesitation, it was gone now, and the words slipped from his mouth with effortless ease.

"Bones, will you marry me?"

Bones was quiet, and Jim opened his eyes, pulling back his head until he could see Bones' face. His eyes were bright with unshed tears, and he was wearing a ferocious scowl, trying to force them back. Jim's heart beat faster as he waited for the response.

Finally, Bones cleared his throat.

"Yeah, Jim, course I will."

And after that, nothing more needed to be said.

beah: trek love to press spock's buttonsbeahorgana on January 10th, 2010 04:10 am (UTC)

I'll have to save the coherency for later my dear.

beah: trek love to press spock's buttonsbeahorgana on January 10th, 2010 04:14 am (UTC)
All right, okay, let's see about this now. You know me - and most importantly you know that I LOVE the sexin. But more than that, I love that the sexin isn't the focal point here, it's the emotions and desperate need behind the sexin. It made my heart explode in that way that only Jim and Bones (and you at the helm) can achieve.

Bones holding back unshed tears and scowling might be the best thing I've ever visualized. Of course, and you've got to be tired of this from me by now, I will require the wedding night sequel.

(no subject) - skyblue_reverie on January 10th, 2010 04:41 am (UTC) (Expand)
ivorysilkivorysilk on January 10th, 2010 05:01 am (UTC)
Oh, I always love your fic--and this was fabulous.

Is it bad that I'm left wondering what Bones' epic seductions are like? Cuz this was pretty epic in and of itself :-)
Sky: [star trek aos] karl sexyfaceskyblue_reverie on January 10th, 2010 05:08 am (UTC)
Aww, thank you so much, bb! *hugs*

Well, in my head at least Bones is a total closet romantic, so when he goes all out, he really goes all out - soft music, mood lighting, a gorgeously presented meal, lingering glances and then kisses that go on for hours... he'd know how to do it right. And Jim would scoff and poke fun at him but not-so-seekritly ADORE IT. :D
lindmere: Kirk foglindmere on January 10th, 2010 05:14 am (UTC)
Ahhh, so sweet and beautiful...I adore how McCoy ritualistically "examines" him, always the caretaker, and how Jim is willing to tolerate it because he knows it's what Bones needs. Absolutely lovely.
Sky: [star trek aos] bones nameskyblue_reverie on January 10th, 2010 06:06 am (UTC)
Thank you so much! Mmmm, ritualistic!caretaking!Bones... *drifts off to happy place*

I'm so glad you enjoyed. Thanks ever so for reading & commenting! :)
Bookish Hooliganyeomanrand on January 10th, 2010 06:25 am (UTC)
Oh, thank you. This was lovely and what I was looking for. :)
Sky: [star trek aos] karl thumbskyblue_reverie on January 10th, 2010 06:45 am (UTC)
I'm so very glad. I'm sending all my good thoughts your way. :)
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Sky: [star trek aos] karl heartskyblue_reverie on January 10th, 2010 07:16 am (UTC)
Yay! Glad that bit worked for you. I so love writing all this fic! We'll see how long the muses are with me. :)

The Hysterical Hystorian: Star Trek: always there for youabigail89 on January 11th, 2010 04:25 pm (UTC)
Oh, god. This was perfect. Yeah, it was hot, but the deep, abiding, unending love expressed in the hot makes this so much more than gratuitous porn.

The truth was that Jim could never leave Bones, couldn't live even a day without the refuge of Bones' steady affection and fathomless passion. This line? Utter perfection.
Sky: [star trek aos] kirk/mccoy b&wskyblue_reverie on January 11th, 2010 07:40 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! That deep abiding love is exactly what I was trying to convey, so I'm so glad it came across.

Oooh, I struggled a lot with that line, wasn't sure about the word "fathomless" - too obscure? too pretentious? so I'm especially relieved to have that one pointed out as your fave! :DDD
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nicdisturbinglynic on January 11th, 2010 04:37 pm (UTC)
that was beautiful
Sky: [star trek aos] jim half smileskyblue_reverie on January 11th, 2010 07:40 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! Glad you enjoyed. :)
blcwriterblcwriter on January 11th, 2010 04:40 pm (UTC)
Very, very sweet. I do love the tenderness fics ever so much. :)
Sky: [star trek aos] not your mother's otpskyblue_reverie on January 11th, 2010 07:41 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! I'm glad it hit the tenderness spot for you.
Tour Guide Barbie: sweetheartskinderjedi on January 11th, 2010 04:50 pm (UTC)
This is just gorgeous.
Sky: [star trek aos] chris pine sepiaskyblue_reverie on January 11th, 2010 07:42 pm (UTC)
Awww, what a lovely thing to say! Thank you. :)
ennui_blue_lite: Star Trek!Nu - Team Jonesennui_blue_lite on January 11th, 2010 05:44 pm (UTC)
I was so sure I'd commented on this...

Hon, it's beautiful. Simply beautiful. *sighs* There are many parts that I just love: Bones keeping vigil over Jim, even though they both know Jim's not sleeping; The assumption by the crew that Jim's the leader int their relaionship, and Bones will get dropped at the first sign of something pretty, when the truth couldn't be further from that; Bones' examination of Jim's body, slow and thurough; the sex, soft, life affirming, tender sex, god. And then this:

"Bones, will you marry me?"

That's the part that hits me every time, and I get all teary eyed and have to hug something. *hugs blankets*

I adore this. Your language gets more and more gorgeous with each fic, and I cannot wait to see where this style takes you. And I also can't wait to see where you take Jim and Bones, so the two of us need to get writing again!

*hugs you so much*

Edited at 2010-01-11 05:44 pm (UTC)
Sky: [fry & laurie] i love youskyblue_reverie on January 11th, 2010 07:46 pm (UTC)
Aww, darling, thank you so much. It makes me so happy that you have to snuggle something when you read the fic! :DDD

And you are my inspiration for poetic language, you know. Thank you for reading and reassuring me that my purple prose wasn't too purple. A delicate lavender, maybe? ;)

Yes, we will definitely continue to write together via chat! It's so much fun, and we are both so productive that way!

*hugs you ten billion times*

*uses icon that is not appropriate for this fandom but is appropriate to you*
Weeping Naiad: ST: Jones - How Can I?weepingnaiad on January 11th, 2010 05:49 pm (UTC)
Beautiful! Simply gorgeous. I love their passion and need and depth of emotion for each other. And, yeah, i can see Bones being just like this, needing to reassure himself and Jim that he's all right.

Sky: [star trek aos] bones nameskyblue_reverie on January 11th, 2010 07:47 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! I kind of have a button for mutual need and codependency, if you couldn't tell already. :p And for caretaking!Bones. So I'm very glad that it worked for you!
missmarie9 on January 11th, 2010 06:13 pm (UTC)
Tears in my eyes, I have tears in my eyes. Oh my goodness.

Sky: [star trek aos] jim coldskyblue_reverie on January 11th, 2010 07:48 pm (UTC)
Oh! *hands you tissues* I'm sorry about that... but also kind of proud? *is conflicted*

Thanks for the comment, my dear. :)
rubynye on January 11th, 2010 06:18 pm (UTC)
That was really lovely, and nicely paced.
Sky: [star trek aos] karl hand to foreheadskyblue_reverie on January 11th, 2010 07:51 pm (UTC)
Oh, thank you so much! I really appreciate the comment. :)
siluria: ST_OTPsiluria on January 11th, 2010 06:19 pm (UTC)
So tender and sweet and gorgeous *happy sigh*
Sky: [star trek aos] not your mother's otpskyblue_reverie on January 11th, 2010 07:52 pm (UTC)
Thank you so much! I'm thrilled that you enjoyed it. :)
laughter_nowlaughter_now on January 11th, 2010 06:26 pm (UTC)
Oh my god, this was simply beautiful.
Your language is so poetic and creates such beautiful images. And the way you describe their relationship is just wonderful - that mutual need for this, in right this moment, but not the rushed kind of need but something that's so soul-deep and achingly tender, it made me tear up.
Wonderful story, thanks so much for sharing!
Sky: [star trek aos] karl sexyfaceskyblue_reverie on January 11th, 2010 07:55 pm (UTC)
Oh, my goodness, this comment made me all fluttery and incoherent! It's something I've been working on in my writing - trying to be a bit more poetic and lyrical. It doesn't come naturally to me at all, and I'm always worried that it's coming across as stilted or pretentious or something. So thank you so much for commenting on the poetic language and imagery! :DDDD

And I'm very very glad that the mutual need and tenderness came across. I'm such a sappy romantic. :p

Thanks again for the lovely fb!