June 6th, 2013

[custom] sky blue grass


So, um, hi. *shuffles foot diffidently*

I'm dreadfully ashamed that it's been so long since I've posted. It's been even longer than that since I've been writing or even reading in fandom. I just... lost my mojo, I guess.

Anyway, I decided it was time to reconnect. I don't have my mojo back, I haven't written a word of fiction in months, maybe even over a year? But I've missed you, and I've missed fandom, and writing, and being a part of this community. So... here I am.

On the personal front, since I last posted, I've gotten a full time job (I was formerly self-employed) but I'm kind of miserable and want to be self-employed again, but doing something else. That's one of the things I'll probably be posting about for a while. Ideas/encouragement always welcome.

I also got a divorce - it was a long time coming, though it was an incredibly hard decision. No one in my family has ever gotten divorced. No one. EVER. So it was kind of hard to come to terms with the fact that I needed to. And I did need to. I am so much happier now. I mean, I couldn't have even imagined how much freer and more content I would be after I left a marriage that had become, if not toxic, at least... stifling.

Now I'm a single mom, though, and b/c the ex is still trying to get on his feet, I have 100% custody - he visits with the kiddo for a few hours on Saturday. This is hard on my son, and it's also hard on me - much as I love my child, being the sole custodian of a small child while also holding a full time job and trying to maintain my sanity is daunting, to say the least. I'm dating an awesome guy now, and he helps out, but still. Free time is limited, and my energy to do anything after work and parenting duties, almost nil. I haven't even seen the new Star Trek movie!!

So anyway, hopefully will be posting more now, and getting back to commenting on others' posts, even if not writing fic again (yet) myself.

Those of you who have written me personal messages and/or comments that I have not responded to, please accept my abject apologies. I will try to do better going forward.