July 31st, 2006

[custom] sky blue grass

Fandom=love

So I was walking to my car today after work, and I saw this mother and her young daughter (probably 5 or so) walking ahead of me. The girl was asking her mom why she couldn't do something-or-other but the mom could, and the mom said "Because I'm a grown-up. I get to do what I want." This made me want to laugh bitterly and cry at the same time. Because, really, as an adult I have so much less freedom than I did as a kid. I mean, my life basically consists of work, eat, sleep, clean house, pay bills, repeat. I don't get to do what I want most of the time.

I don't want to sound ungrateful or self-pitying. I mean, I've got a great life - fantastic husband, wonderful family, great friends, decent job, a roof over my head, basically everything I could want. But, man, being a grown-up sucks a lot of the time. The one thing in my life that's truly my very own, that I do just for the sheer pleasure of it, is my fannish stuff. That stuff just makes me so happy. Writing fic, reading fic, discussing fandoms with other similarly-obsessed people, watching the shows/reading the books - that stuff is pure gold. And I'm so glad that I've found a ton of other people who are obsessed as well.

So, anyway, I wanted to give a heartfelt thank you to all of you out there in lj land who get this stuff and who create a place where we can all be happy obsessed fannish geeks together. Especially thanks to those who have been the (very patient) recipients of my massively verbose fannish outpourings (you know who you are!)

Love and kisses to you all!