I'm so sorry I dropped out of sight for a while. I wanted to at least give an update so y'all know I wasn't abducted by aliens or something.
Thanks to everyone who wrote to wish me a happy birthday or just to say hi over the last few months. Really, it has meant a lot to me to know I haven't been totally forgotten, and I haven't forgotten you guys, I promise. I haven't written a word of fic, but I'm going to try to post a bit more often anyway, even if it's just personal ramblings. 'Cause you guys love me for me, right, not just for my fic?
Hmm. Well, I'm gonna post about my life anyway. :p
So. As some of you may know, I'm a lawyer. I haven't really talked about it on LJ because, well, lawyers aren't the most popular creatures on earth, and also 'cause I didn't want to seem like I was bragging, and 'cause I didn't really want to be judged by my profession, whether for good or ill. I'm a disability rights lawyer, which is a specialty that I strongly believe in, but there's been quite a bit of backlash against the ADA (Americans with Disabilities Act) and those who work to enforce it, and honestly I'm really not interested in getting into a debate about the civil rights of persons with disabilities on LJ. I come here to forget my RL job, you know?
Anyway. I've been thinking for a while about quitting law altogether, or at least changing fields, or at the very least changing jobs, because my current job is SUPER stressful. So now I've come to the exciting but scary decision that I'm going to start my own practice. I work for a tiny firm (two and a half lawyers - me, my semi-retired boss, and a part-time associate) and I've worked there for about five years, so I know the ropes both in terms of this area of law and in terms of the nuts and bolts of running an office. I'm going to start out doing disability access litigation because that's what I know best, but I want to slowly transition out of litigation work because it's so conflict-driven, which is very difficult and wearying for me. I don't like conflict! I'd rather help people than fight them. I'm going to try to move into trust and estate planning, but we'll see what ends up happening. It's really scary because I'll be giving up a secure income, but it feels like the right decision, so I think it's good to try. I figure if I hate it and/or fail at it, I can still get another job, whether in law or out of it - I'm still young (well, relatively - I just turned 32). I'm sure I'll be working really hard, especially at first, but I figure at least I won't have a boss to look over my shoulder and get mad if I decide to spend some of my workday writing fic or surfing LJ. :p Anyway, any advice/well-wishes/you're-crazy-speeches would be welcome!
In other big news, my husband and I are hopefully going to be buying a house in the next few months. Because of the recent death of my wealthy step-grandfather (he was a sexist controlling bastard, so not many tears are being shed - just as a ferinstance, when he and my grandmother traveled together, he flew first class but made her travel coach on the same flight) my parents have come into a bit of money and can help us out with a down payment. And with the market the way it is, we can actually afford a home in the bay area, which is kind of a miracle. I'm hoping to get something big enough that I can have a home office so I can at least avoid the overhead of renting an office for the first few years.
ALSO, as if that weren't enough, I'm trying to get pregnant. Some of you know that I had a miscarriage a couple of years ago, at 11 weeks, which was devastating. I took a couple of years off from trying to get pregnant because I just wasn't emotionally ready to try again, and was dealing with my depression as well. The biological clock is now ticking pretty strongly, and I have fertility issues which will only get worse with age, so I'm pressing ahead, despite the major life changes I've outlined above. Am I crazy? Probably. But I also, maybe for the first time in my life, have confidence that everything will work out, one way or another. So I'm also beginning to undergo fertility treatments, like the fun butt-injection that House gave to Cuddy, only mine was administered by an older female nurse who wasn't nearly as cute as HL, more's the pity. So far no luck (I've been trying for about 4 months) but I'll keep you guys posted.
I mentioned depression above, and on that front I'm continuing to do well. It's a constant struggle, with some days up and some down, but overall I'm doing so much better than I was a year ago. I've had my meds adjusted upwards a couple of times when they seemed to stop working, but (knock on wood) my current dosage seems to be continuing to work for me. I heart Prozac. Seriously.
Well, that's probably enough to drop on you guys for now, and anyway I need to go work on an emergency ex parte motion that has to be filed tomorrow (fun, fun).
Come say hi, please - I've really missed all you guys! There's no hope that I'll catch up on my f-list from the past several months, but I'll try to be better about reading it in the future, and if major stuff has been going on in your life (or even not-major stuff) I'd love to hear about it.
*smooshes f-list in a giant hug*