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Fic Masterlist

As of September 2019, I am no longer keeping this masterlist current, but all of my fics can be found on AO3, here.


Links to all my fics. FINALLY. \o/

In no particular fandom order:

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Trek Fic: (Caught Between the) Scylla and Charybdis

(Caught Between the) Scylla and Charybdis (6335 words) by skyblue_reverie
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Star Trek: Alternate Original Series (Movies)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: James T. Kirk/Leonard "Bones" McCoy
Characters: James T. Kirk, Leonard "Bones" McCoy, Crew of the Starship Enterprise
Additional Tags: Post-Canon, Creepy, I hope, away mission, Disturbing Themes, Prompt Fic, Spook Me Multi-Fandom Halloween Ficathon, POV Alternating
Summary:

The away team tries to survive an away mission gone (especially) wrong.



Their orders had been to do a quick scouting mission, stay out of sight of any locals, get back up to the Enterprise and make a report about local conditions. Routine. Easy. Safe. Leonard snorted. They should all have known by now that there was no such thing as a routine, easy, or safe mission.



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Trek Fic: Boyfriends

Title: Boyfriends (Also available here, on AO3
Author: [personal profile] skyblue_reverie (on DW, LJ, and AO3)
Fandom/Pairing: Star Trek AOS, Kirk/McCoy
Rating/Warnings: R-ish, for naughty words. Nothing explicit.
Word Count: Around 950
Summary: Three perspectives on Jim & Bones getting together, finally.
Author’s Notes: A bit of silliness written for Round 4, Mission 4 of [community profile] starfleet_hq. The stardate on the three log entries puts it a few months after the events of Star Trek Beyond. No spoilers though.

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On depression

My depression has been really bad lately. I know there are many of us who struggle with it on here. I ran across this poem and it really resonated with me, maybe it will for some of you too. All my love and hugs to my fellow strugglers.


Having it Out with Melancholy
Jane Kenyon - 1947-1995


If many remedies are prescribed
for an illness, you may be certain
that the illness has no cure.
A. P. CHEKHOV
The Cherry Orchard



1 FROM THE NURSERY

When I was born, you waited
behind a pile of linen in the nursery,
and when we were alone, you lay down
on top of me, pressing
the bile of desolation into every pore.

And from that day on
everything under the sun and moon
made me sad—even the yellow
wooden beads that slid and spun
along a spindle on my crib.

You taught me to exist without gratitude.
You ruined my manners toward God:
"We're here simply to wait for death;
the pleasures of earth are overrated."

I only appeared to belong to my mother,
to live among blocks and cotton undershirts
with snaps; among red tin lunch boxes
and report cards in ugly brown slipcases.
I was already yours—the anti-urge,
the mutilator of souls.


2 BOTTLES

Elavil, Ludiomil, Doxepin,
Norpramin, Prozac, Lithium, Xanax,
Wellbutrin, Parnate, Nardil, Zoloft.
The coated ones smell sweet or have
no smell; the powdery ones smell
like the chemistry lab at school
that made me hold my breath.



3 SUGGESTION FROM A FRIEND

You wouldn't be so depressed
if you really believed in God.



4 OFTEN

Often I go to bed as soon after dinner
as seems adult
(I mean I try to wait for dark)
in order to push away
from the massive pain in sleep's
frail wicker coracle.



5 ONCE THERE WAS LIGHT

Once, in my early thirties, I saw
that I was a speck of light in the great
river of light that undulates through time.

I was floating with the whole
human family. We were all colors—those
who are living now, those who have died,
those who are not yet born. For a few

moments I floated, completely calm,
and I no longer hated having to exist.

Like a crow who smells hot blood
you came flying to pull me out
of the glowing stream.
"I'll hold you up. I never let my dear
ones drown!" After that, I wept for days.



6 IN AND OUT

The dog searches until he finds me
upstairs, lies down with a clatter
of elbows, puts his head on my foot.

Sometimes the sound of his breathing
saves my life—in and out, in
and out; a pause, a long sigh. . . .



7 PARDON

A piece of burned meat
wears my clothes, speaks
in my voice, dispatches obligations
haltingly, or not at all.
It is tired of trying
to be stouthearted, tired
beyond measure.

We move on to the monoamine
oxidase inhibitors. Day and night
I feel as if I had drunk six cups
of coffee, but the pain stops
abruptly. With the wonder
and bitterness of someone pardoned
for a crime she did not commit
I come back to marriage and friends,
to pink fringed hollyhocks; come back
to my desk, books, and chair.



8 CREDO

Pharmaceutical wonders are at work
but I believe only in this moment
of well-being. Unholy ghost,
you are certain to come again.

Coarse, mean, you'll put your feet
on the coffee table, lean back,
and turn me into someone who can't
take the trouble to speak; someone
who can't sleep, or who does nothing
but sleep; can't read, or call
for an appointment for help.

There is nothing I can do
against your coming.
When I awake, I am still with thee.



9 WOOD THRUSH

High on Nardil and June light
I wake at four,
waiting greedily for the first
note of the wood thrush. Easeful air
presses through the screen
with the wild, complex song
of the bird, and I am overcome

by ordinary contentment.
What hurt me so terribly
all my life until this moment?
How I love the small, swiftly
beating heart of the bird
singing in the great maples;
its bright, unequivocal eye.





From Constance by Jane Kenyon, published by Graywolf Press. © 1993 by Jane Kenyon.

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Trek Fic: Into Shadows

Just posting here because I have finished Into Shadows, which is my "fix it" for Into Darkness. It pretty much follows the same events of Into Darkness but with a Pike/McCoy relationship and much more of Pike and McCoy, along with Kirk. And less of... pretty much everyone else. And no permanent major character deaths. So there, JJ.

Anyway, if you want to read it, it is 10 parts long, about 20k words total, and the series is on my AO3, here.

As you were!

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Comm Pimpage!

Please come join, I'm having so much fun already! It's a challenge comm for all versions of Star Trek, all are welcome. Round 4 just started and signups are open now. Tell them I sent you and join the Operations team with me! :D?



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Banner by the talented [personal profile] witchka

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ST Discovery Fic: Constant

Title: Constant
Author: [personal profile] skyblue_reverie
Fandom/Pairing: Star Trek: Discovery, Lorca/Burnham (unrequited)
Rating/Warnings: R for adult thoughts and words. SPOILERS FOR THE END OF SEASON 1.
Word Count: around 1200
Summary: Gabriel Lorca looks at the stars and thinks about his life.

My first Star Trek: Discovery fic, written for the fandomweekly prompt "Starry Night." Expanded from the original 1000 word limit because this is me we're talking about.


Link to fic on AO3

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writing meme

I ganked this meme from [personal profile] sodium_amytal. Whee!

Comment with any of the following words and I'll answer the question following that word. No time limit, so if you find this meme in a year, feel free to still comment. :p

monday: do you struggle with the ‘boring’ parts of writing?
tuesday: name a fic you have posted which you think is overrated?
wednesday: name a fic which you have posted which you think is underrated?
thursday: have you ever written a high fantasy concept?
friday: most self-indulgent fic you have ever posted?
saturday: what gets you excited whilst writing?
sunday: how frequently do you take requests or prompts, if at all?
fortnight: what wip do you plan on posting next, if at all?
january: what was the first fic you posted this year?
february: have you ever written and/or a holiday-centric fic?
march: do you listen to music whilst writing?
april: have you ever written and/or posted a crackfic?
may: a fic you have regretted posting?
june: have you ever written and/or posted a marriage fic?
july: what’s the hottest fic you have written and/or posted if you write smut at all?
august: are any of your fics associated with certain genres/artists/songs/etc?
september: share a comment or review which still warms your heart?
october: name the darkest or angstiest fic you have written and/or posted?
november: do you have any rituals or requirements for getting in the mood for writing?
december: have you ever gifted a fic to someone?
recent: the most recent fic you have posted online?
ancient: the first fic you ever posted online?
seconds: shortest completed fic?
minutes: how long does it normally take you to complete a fic?
hours: longest wip or completed fic?
tomorrow: favourite ways to write fluff?
yesterday: favourite way to write angst?
today: have you made any progress in any wips today?
calendar: do you have a schedule for posting?
forever: do you balance fic writing with original concept stuff?

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Trek Fic: Of Dogs and Kids

I wonned something! I posted a 1000-word fic for the DW FandomWeekly comm's writing challenge #023, with the prompt "Inner Children". There was also a bonus for including a pet or companion animal.

And I gotted first place! I'm so excited!

Anyway, here's a link to the fic over at AO3.

Theme Prompt: #023 - Inner Child
Title: Of Dogs and Kids
Fandom: Star Trek Alternate Original Series (Movies)
Pairing/Relationships: James Kirk & Leonard McCoy, gennish but could be read as slash or pre-slash if you want.
Rating/Warnings: PG-13 for references to offscreen animal cruelty and for naughty words. No spoilers.
Word Count: around 1100 - the fic I posted on the challenge comm was 1000 words exactly but I had to add a few more sentences when I posted to AO3, because of course I did.
Summary: Where before, there had been two to beam up – he and Jim were the last ones to return from the away mission – now there were four on the transporter pad.
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Trek Fic: Into Shadows

So I wroted another fic. I'mma start linking to my fics on AO3 instead of posting them both places. Hope you (the two of you who are still here!) enjoy.

Into Shadows (1500 words) by skyblue_reverie
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Star Trek: Alternate Original Series (Movies)
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: James T. Kirk & Leonard "Bones" McCoy, Leonard "Bones" McCoy/Christopher Pike
Characters: James T. Kirk, Christopher Pike, Spock (mentioned)
Additional Tags: Fix-It, Established Relationship, Male Friendship, Bones was at the bar with Jim dammit, And they're not stupid
Summary:

How Into Darkness should have gone. This part – the beginning. There were no words of comfort Leonard could offer, but there was something he needed to say. “Jim, wherever you get posted, I’m going to request reassignment there too.”